Bipolar is a lifelong and a life changing illness. There is no cure for but it can be managed. Bipolar is very hard to diagnose.
When you are depressed, if you go to your regular Dr. he will most likely give you an antidepressant. Antidepressants can trigger an episode and reverse it then it might be hard to stay on the medication. Why if you feel better and you are happy and full of energy wanting to do things, or change things, like rearange the house, or go shopping and spend evcessive amounts of money without any concern to what it is doing to the finances or in the worst case scenario, you have destroy your relationships with your loved ones, be it family, friends, worst of all your spouse you've probably slipped into a mania. In the beginning these manias are not severe but as time pass they increase in severity and lenght. Afer the mania and and you get rationale you look back at what you did and the depression begins again. This time even worse because this time you have a reason to pin it on, so you try to stick with it, denying there is nothing that can be done about it and things will get better, and they do when another mania sets in and the self destuctive acts begin again. The longer this goes on the worse the self hate gets. Who would think of going to a psychiatrist for help, you must, the consaquences can be grave.
When you are diagnosed, you finally find out why you feel and do things you realize are not usual. It explains why you do what you do. With the right psychiatrist , therapist and the right medication you can control the mood swings. It may take years to find just the right medication but if you make the decision to control your bipolar, it is worth it. Be patient and work with your doctor eventually you will be stable.
Except that you have this illness, make a conscious decision that you will do anything to control it and take your medication regularly. You can begin to like yourself again and become stable.

